Monday, 30 March 2009
12:30:40 AM (GMT)
I saw the movie Marley & Me. I went in expecting to cry. The whole movie made you
feel like you knew Marley, and you started to love that crazy dog. As the end came
near I knew what was going to happen. While my sister and just about half the
audience cried. I didn't. In my head I told myself to be strong.
I realized while Marley was lying there, that all dogs are going to be in this
situation some day. I started to think of my dog and I wanted to cry. But my mind put
up a block and ordered my not to cry. I wonder why this is. Why whenever a sad
situation comes into play I try not to cry. Am I trying to prove something? Or is
this my way of becoming an emotionally strong person? I will admit when my sisters
and I were younger I was known as the cry baby to them. Me being the youngest and not
knowing all the jokes and pranks, did make me cry. But now that I'm older a lot of
new disasters have came and gone leaving me emotionally scarred. When someone brings
them up I don't cry anymore. I want to, I want to cry until my eyes are dry, but I
just can't do it. I guess I answered my question. Why do I stop myself from crying?
It's all because I want to prove that I can be emotionally strong.