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Thursday, 4 December 2008
11:59:20 PM (GMT)
~Here we are, in a world with people of many origins, but this one person, has an X in his heart. He is the one who will be left out. He is the one who will suffer. He is the one who is sick of the same cycle everyday. He is the one with the choice. He needs help. Nothing is helping. He needs love. Love fades. He needs his best friend. She has crumbled from his life. He needs out. The key is missing. He is the one who will look everyday for the key. He is the one who thinks and fights for affection. He is the one who will walk away happy one day. He is the one who might leave crying. He is the one who will say, "Love... Love was my friend but, thou shalt not leave me... not yet...". He is the one who will make the daring decision. He is the one who will make the jump. He is the one who will fall the mighty fall. He is saved. By what? Angels. They are his only hope of life and believing. He looked up crying and touched the face of an Angel. The Angels smiled down at him. Among them was her, the girl. That girl left him and crushed him. He screamed. His heart gave out. No more strength to carry on life. This is it. Was it it? When is it? He felt his shallow chest. Nothing. He closed his soft green eyes, hoping that the cycle would go away and God would bless him with the roses kiss. Who would know about his pain? No one. He smiled briefly and screamed to the sky, yelling for the Angels to take him from the wrenched place. They left him. He was in deep water, full of thoughts and grief. He drifted, crying. He slept, sobbing. He woke up, screaming alone. He finally saw it one day, the key. He smiled weakly with hope and took it. He raised the key to the heavens above and a ray of golden sun and glitter, God took the key and killed him. He was happy he died. He was happy he was gone. But wait, what's this? He was alive. Just a dream. He rose from his bed, the cycle began again, just waiting for him to suffer that day, and the next, and the next. And do you know who this boy just is?
Last edited: 5 December 2008

‹AlexAttached<3› says:   5 December 2008   243341  
You're just making me want to stab her for what she's making deal
I know it's not only about her, but still.
I need to help you.
And I know that, for that to happen, I'm going to have to talk to

You don't deserve this vicious cycle.
Of that, I'm sure.
Tell me how.
Tell me anything.
But tell me how to make it better.
‹Wallflowers♥› says:   5 December 2008   965847  
I want to solve this on my own Alex, even if it means I shall suffer
doing it.
I think I can handle one last painful word with her.
I think I can make it. <--- Not happening.
I think I can make things right.
I want to try.
I have to try.
Just once more.
I may be suffering and the brusies have doubled but, I do not care.
I just want our friendship to last.
I feel terrible about all this.
This is my fault for meeting her anyway.
Sometimes, I regret.
But, she is my other.
I can not live without her by my freakish side.
We were the best of friends until now.
I don't know if I did something or if its one of her breakdowns but, I
need to know what is with her of else.
‹Wallflowers♥› says:   5 December 2008   445454  
*Or else
Gawd I hate keyboards. ._.
‹♠ Riku ~ Timi ~ Hatsuhara ♠› says:   5 December 2008   653342  
that's sad......
‹Wallflowers♥› says:   5 December 2008   231285  
I know.
‹♥It'sMaria› says:   5 December 2008   712536  
That is so deeply sad.
What's wrong? D:
‹Aurora du Coudray› says :   5 December 2008   156552  
axel dont please *huggs and cries* y are you so sad i love you *huggs


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