Friday, 8 February 2008
04:23:41 PM (GMT)
I'm depressed. Do you want to know why I'm depressed? No you don't! Of course you
don't! BUt too bad. I'm going to tell you anyway.
Here's the deal:
I started grade seven at a brand new school. Yup, yup, I'm the
new kid. People say being the new kid rocks 'cause everyone is nice to you, but the
truth is, it's not all it's cracked up to be. I missed my friends at my old school.
So, so much! But did they miss me? I couldn't tell. They never called, e-mailed,
invited me over. I tried to stay in touch with them, but they always had excuses to
go. Yesterday I finally got into a conversation on MSN with one of my best friends.
And you know what? I was stupedfied, shocked, completely taken aback, perplexed! My
friend was describing all these thing that were happening, big things, different
things. All of my friends were dating. Why do twelve year old girls need boyfriends?
You know what, we don't! The worst part is, my best friend was going out with a
guy...that I used to like! I mean I know what you're think: "If you used to
like him what does it matter?" Well, when I did like him my friends, including that
best friends thought I was crazy, insane, stupid, totally and utterly out of my mind.
And now she's dating him?! Traitor, liar, back-stabber.... I can't belive how much
she's changed, how much all of my friends have changed! Dating make-up, following the
fads. It makes me sick. They used to all want to be unique and that's what I liked in
them, but now? Now they're the same pathetic preteens I frown upon.
I cried last night. Hard. They were so different. So...not what I
looked for in friends at all. I realized something: I needed to put them behind me. I
got what I need from them the time I went to their school. Now I'm at a different
school with different people. My old friends may have changed for the worst, in my
opinion, but I'll change for the best. Right? Ya, right. So here I am. The new and
improved Natalie! Ready to take on the world (or at least her new school) with honor