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i swaer to tell the truth...the whole truth....and nothing but the
Category: confession
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
06:18:14 PM (GMT)
 i cannot tell you my name for my identity must stay hidden. my thoughts
are....well original. i am very smart, and i have diagnosed myself of depression.
since i was a lil gurl i have had dreams of people dieing, desire to kill people who
hurt me, i was a extraordinary child. as i grew older things got worse. my older
brother raped and molested me and my best friend[well ex best friend now] molested
me. i have attempted suicide at least 5 times in my lifetime. i have been to hell and
baqkk literally........it suckz being me. i have anger management issues,, sexual
abuse trauma and depression. my friend could never understand wat i go thru but then
again no else will. i have horrible nightmares,, desires to kill others and myself. i
need mellow pills but my therapists wont give them to me. its lke she wants me to
die. im very racists too. but hey anything is beta than my life now. i cry tears and
is very emo. i maybe evn a lil goth. but hey  who doesnt hate me?

sexy_me_ says:   5 February 2008   547127  
woah_is_alex says:   9 February 2008   587322  
i dont hate u!
‹rhythmic heart thumps <3› says:   9 February 2008   879796  
i dont hate u either!
princess_of_hip_hop13 says:   9 February 2008   154488  
lol..i didnt know u felt this way..wish i can tell u who i am..but i
cant..n i think its crazy..
princess_of_hip_hop13 suggests:   9 February 2008   127945  
i think u should talk 2 ppl about ur problems..like ur bf or some one
close to u..n knows u very well
thegirlwithouttears says:   14 February 2008   613577  
ummmmmm  i  dont  hate  u dude  u  rock  and  ill  be  dear  4  u  my
bf  and dont  shad a  tears  of  the    pain  and  the  sarrow  in  
life  is like that  the  good  and the bad and a tear  drop  is 
always  coming  down like the  nile  river  runing  but  in  stead  of
 tears  its  blood  of  the  death  of  the people  and  the  outcome 
of life  that   will  persume  in  the  process  of  pain  the  dreams
of  sarrow  the nightmare of fear  not  ablbe  to  look  in the merrow
 of all  the  tears  a dream  see the  thing u afrade  of  so  fight
it  stop  it  from  takeing  over  u  the  girl  the  1  with  the
dream  just  fight  it  show  them u  is  u  and  the  past  wont 
stop   u  from  seeing  the  future  anyway  i  dont  hate  u   u 
rock  dude  panda  dance and  ya p.s  i  can  see  though  the  pain 
in ur  eyes  the darkness  that  trap  u  in and  the smile  of sarrow
 and the  un-for-get-ta-ble  past  that  locks  the  real u.
sxc_mamaszbabesz says:   14 February 2008   415382  
thank you everyone for commenting much luvv much luvv
raven1121hehe69 says:   30 August 2008   844815  
i would never hate you!
sxc_mamaszbabesz says:   1 September 2008   959864  
thanx raven1121heheh69
sailormoon93 says :   14 September 2010   621370  
i know im madd late on thiss but damn....i know how u feel but we can
pull it through...idk if me commenting now means anything or not but i
just want you to know (even though im not all that good at taking my
own advice) thats things will be better and way better than what they


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