Friday, 7 December 2007
03:58:17 AM (GMT)
Well, I'm sorry about not answering messages and stuff...
I'm kind of trying to get out of my rocky stage.
I'm going to visit Ohio on Monday and Tuesday.
Which I have never done, we're going to see the school there.
So I'm stressed about that... My parents want me to be all perfect or something...
First they tell me to be myself, then they tell me to act this way, and no hair in
front of my eyes, and do this, and no this, and behave like this, make a good
impression, and blah blah blah blah ginger.
So I'm trying to deal with that...
But I'm not the best at dealing with things.
Then this happens.
Tonight, Mother asked me if I wanted to go to the mall to Christmas Present shop with
I told her I needed to, so yes I would love to come.
So she gets home from work and has dinner, and I'm ready to go, but she notices I
have the Teddy bear with me. (His name is Bear bear.)
She tells me I can't take him. We argue for a little bit, and then Dad tells me I can
take it in the car but not into the mall... (I hate the mall, except for Hot Topic.
Because they have hot people and they also have the coolest stuff...)
I tell them I don't wanna go without him.
They tell me that I can't take him.
So I ask, "Why the hell can't I take him? Tell me the real fricking reason." *Was
going to say Fucking, but had a feeling they would spaz at that.*
And Mother is Silent and Dad says, "Because she's embarrassed to be seen with you."
Imagine how happy that makes me feel.
My own parents don't want to be seen with me, heck, they care what other people think
I'm in tears at the moment, but that time will pass.
I guess I just lost my level of trust for them, they're now strangers to me.
So if I don't answer, I'm sorry.