Sunday, 8 July 2007
12:28:16 AM (GMT)
I was talking on Msn to my friend and she was freaked out and over self conscious...
she's not the only one, this is my speech on this sector of life. and im reaching
deep. this isn't any of the depressing hard core goth shit i wright.
the only thing im even self-conscious about slightly is my dick. In this world you
could be the richest, the poorest, the smartest, the dumbest, if you got the looks
and the dick, you can get any chick, im not saying EVERY girl wants a huge cock in
them, but most think it's a plus. I have all the qualities everyone claims they want
in a guy BUT im not the best looking there is. I'm not fucking anorexic like
every one else, and im not the best looking guy in the world, but im fucking human, i
want to be treated like it. And i mean starting off a lot of women are all to shallow
at the time to even realize what they had I may not be the best at every thing they
want, but im fucking close, maybe i have emotional problems and i like to party.
Maybe i get so stoned i can't see straight, Maybe i drink till the point where i
can't stand up.. But still Every one wants to be excepted. no matter how hard and
closed and anti-social i seem, i want that too weather it from meth heads who
remember my name or not. I just want some one i can be my self, say every thing
honestly and they are cool with it. I don't need them to jump in and get exited with
what im talking about, they could even be bored to fucking death but i just want them
to listen, Maybe even give me there idea on things. Yes i am a man, but it is so
wrong for me to want someone to open up to and have them hold me? I have loved and
lost so many times... I'm not going to ramble on and wish for your sympathy or any
thing of that pathetic sort, But i hope you realize im digging from the depths of my
heart and soul.
I'm only bi because i'm looking for that where ever i can find it, if im made fun of
for the rest of my life because i found it in the biggest fruit or the biggest whore
in the world. I'll fucking take it, cus i prefer happiness over what others think. I
just hope that some one will read this and understand where im coming from.... I'm
not mad.. or sad.. im just tired up everyone walking all over me once im open..