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Wednesday, 25 September 2013
03:29:53 PM (GMT)
I'm trapped behind these walls
I can't see through them all
But some are clear as a New Year's Day
While others are dark like a bone rotting away

I feel them on my fingertips
As I push them all away
But they just keep closing in on me
So not only do I fade

I'll be crushed
I'll be smothered
I'll be pushed
And I'll be covered

It's just the people on the other side
Leaning on the concrete
Laughing about their own little jokes
Ignoring the screams of my revolt 

This room is soft
But very quiet
I can hear myself
But not the others

There's something on my shoulder
Screaming my mistakes
But I cover my ears
Lay on the floor
And shut my eyes for its intake 

The door in the corner there
Was never opened when it shut
I glance at it from time to time
And hope it will soon show
My future, my parents
And a leering sister frantic

I wish to be accepted
Not by one, but by all
So I can see normality 
I would like to call

I stare at the clear wall
And look at the white coat men laugh
Oh how I wish to live like this

Why can't they see me
But I can see them
Are they not real
Or can I not attend
Their happy thoughts
Of cheery lives
And discreet lies

I'd rather die than be in here
It's hell against me
And me against fear
I wish to touch
To feel
To live again

Second chances do not exist
Cause once I entered
They lost interest
And now I'm stuck here
To breathe
To starve
To wonder about what is life
And what it's come to
And who I am
And who I'm not

Don't save me now
Because it's too late
I haven't been breathing
For 7 years, maybe 8
Last edited: 25 September 2013

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