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Tuesday, 14 August 2012
05:28:10 AM (GMT)
So like, three and a half weeks ago I became single for the first time in nine
But he was like "Oh a break, I promizz I luv u blah I need tyme 2 think blah"
So I was like "Okay I understand" and we talked only a handful of times after that
while he was still 
like "I luv u I promizz just a break"


Then Sara messaged me through Facebook and is like "Oh, he's trying to hook up
With my boyfriend's 12 year old sister and they were making out on the couch,
anything you wanna
Say? Cause it's not right he's pathetic"
Which really felt like somebody has teared out my heart and dissolve it in 
acid twice before putting the melted thing inside my body again and stapled it in
Then I confronted him (I used very mean words and heart-tearing personal crap which
only happens when I'm extremely 
angry and depressed and I don't control it because I naturally keep my patience
locked up, 
but it all explodes like a bomb) 
And he was like "I didn't wanna be with you but didn't know how to tell you fuck you"

And it was quite terrible. I do feel quite bitchy for saying the reeeeally mean
things I said,
but his actions and lies and hypocrisy were of equivalent emotional pain.

But now I don't give a fuck. It was like 8-9 days ago.
I feel as if the world is against me.
But then again, my confidence rose up pretty high for no apparent reason.
But the depression continued for two days and I lost 3 pounds cause of it.
But Fak. 
We are meant to be on our own. 
I know I won't be forever alone. 
But that was the worst heartbreak. Ever. What a lying heartless hypocrite. 
But eh.
I know I deserve better.

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