Friday, 10 February 2012
01:27:48 AM (GMT)
I want to cry.
I want to push him against a locker and kiss him until he's got his hands in my
pockets and mine on his chest.
I want to scream.
I want to sleep.
I want to get high.
I want to draw.
I want to write.
I want to cut.
I want to be doing well in school.
I want to make my mom happy.
I want to make my friends happy.
I want to make everyone happy.
I want him back.
I want him to be comfortable.
I want him to stay here.
I want to go back to the mountain.
I hate it here.
I want to go somewhere that isn't here.
I want to get out of this hole, away from these clouds.
It's all me.
All about me.
I want, I want, I want, I motherfucking WANT.
WANT WANT WANT. THAT'S ALL I DO. FUCKING LITTLE SELFISH BITCH, FUCKING CUNT. YOU
SUCK. ALL BOILS BACK TO YOU, HUH? THAT'S THE WAY IT'S ALWAYS BEEN. YOU SELFISH
CONCEITED DISGUSTING UGLY FUCK. GET YOUR ASS OFF THIS EARTH, AND OUT OF THESE
PEOPLE'S LIVES. THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU, AND YOU MOST CERTAINLY DON'T DESERVE THEM,
THEY'RE TO GOOD FOR YOU. FUCKING JUST DIE ALREADY.
Fuck you, me.
With all the hatred, disrespect, and loathing I can conjure, scrape, and gouge from
the bottom of my stupid fucking barrel,