Sunday, 5 February 2012
03:04:28 PM (GMT)
It's February!! I love February because I love Valentines Day. I love the idea of it
ya know? I always imagine the most sexy and romantic V-days ever like expensive hotel
rooms and quality chocolate and a nice dinner or something down to earth like
watching movies and cuddling all day and eating junk food. It just makes me sooo
AND of course, I love the chocolates. I'm a chocolate fiend and have been for the
past 2 months. I tried some raspberry, dark chocolate fudge and its been what my
dreams are made of since I tried it. It's only $4 per 1/2 a pound but the store is
WAAAAAAY out there. I want it so bad. I need a car or a driver's license or
This feb is going to be a bit of a bummer though given my current romantic situation.
I went to a party a weekend or two back and I met this dude, he's a prospect but at
the same time not really. He's not the romantic type he's a bit gritty and I really
want to cuddle with someone like not sex just cuddling.
I'm not going to write paragraphs about how miserable I am or how I'm lonely but I do
miss him. I can't stand being around him not because I want to jump his bones or I'm
so terribly in love with him I'm angry that he could just dump me like that. And I
get angry thinking that maybe he never loved me, he dated me out of pity.
We weren't even dating I guess. Just fucking. It makes me feel stupid and needy and
useless in the worst way. I'm so fucking stupid.