Friday, 11 November 2011
10:37:57 PM (GMT)
Sorry, I'm in a depressed mood and I need to let my feelings out.
So, this is what has been going on my whole life.
Whenever I get close to someone, I push them away.
It's nothing on them. They never did anything wrong.
It's just me. I can't seem to stay a friend to anyone.
When I get close to someone, I push them away.
I'm afraid. Afraid that it will happen all over again. Where everyone left me.
I have Philophobia. So, when I get close to friends that are guys...
I just push them away. Afraid that something might happen.
I don't know what I am so scared about. But, I have been this way my whole life.
It might not seem like it, but it sucks. I wish I could just have a friend and be
But, I can't. My mind and heart are fucking with me, making sure I can't have any
Maybe it's just better if I just stay home and not go outside.
GAH. This sucks. :/
Sorry, I don't mean to be all depressed on you guys. I just had to get it out. I
don't even know if this makes any sense.
If anyone can help me get over this, that would be awesome.