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Wednesday, 17 August 2011
07:54:35 PM (GMT)
She said she trusts me.
She said she trusts me completely.
If this is true then this is our real beginning, the real start of our life
I thought I would see her today but I won't get too. 
On Sunday I thought I wouldn't see her this week, I need to learn to trust my
Last night hurt me, but it only brings me closer to her. 
A promise is a promise and it still hurts a little bit, but I can't be mad at her.
I love her, I will never leave her no matter what.
I can't live without her.
Today is proof.
but she doesn't need to worry about how my brain works, it has been this way for a
very long time, since the medicine at least.
I wish I had a beer.
or three
or twelve
I would settle for ambien at this point, at least in my dreams we can be together.
but I can't.
I promised her
and I am not going to break it for anything.
So instead, I'll stare at the ceiling and let my thoughts consume me once again.
I'll just keep my mouth shut.
I love her
I am fine
I am ok
I am normal
People think this way
It's natural
It is perfectly normal
I wonder if I hold my breath long enough, will it make me tired enough to sleep?
I didn't promise her that.
I understand why she cuts, now more than ever
This brings  back bad memories.
I wonder if I promised her that...
I can't do it.
I need to be there for her
I am ok
It is just a phase
Things will be better
Just a bad day
Just a bad last several years I suppose
Fucking pills ruined my mind
I am ok
This is normal
I need a nap
I am perfectly ok

I love her

I trust her

I am fine

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