This diary entry is written by ‹freckleshoulders›. ( View all entries )
Friday, 31 December 2010
02:09:02 AM (GMT)
oh. hey. i just wanted to say, in case i don't get the chance
two thousand ten as been an interesting year.
not unlike the rest. but particularly this year, there are some things i would like
to quit carrying around on my back.
i know there was a bit of corruption this summer that we struggled through. aaron,
yesenia. i don't know if either of you dislike or even hate me now, but it's okay if
you do. i would understand. i'm just coming to that point when i let go. it's an
extremely tough thing for me to do, but i know it's about time. i'm sorry if i caused
any heartache, i never meant to or was even aware of it if i had. i really hope you
two will stay together, it's clear you're undeniably in love. and to split after
everything would be tragic. aaron, i forgive you, we all make mistakes. but i guess i
still don't understand why you did what you did. yesenia, you're beautiful of course,
and obviously, you were meant for him after all, not me.
this year i also returned to an old friend. we've had far too many downs to count
and not enough ups. i'm glad i talked to again though, for a while. we straightened
some things out that needed straightening. and i was thinking it would be the last
time, maybe just maybe. but of course, no. josh, i'm sorry for any of the times i may
have hurt you. none of them were ever intentional. i don't want to go backward again
however, i'm not a person that keeps returning. i know that it will result in yet
another fight, one will leave, and then return. it's fruitless. leave it. but i still
really hope you are happy and remember the good things i've said, none of the bad.
you're amazing, like i always used to tell you. maybe you'll believe me this time?
to raina. i have no words. je'taime, te amo, te quiero, i love you. i only know
how to say it four different ways, but still. you were there. it was always you. my
best friend. not my boyfriend, not my other friends, you. and i know i sometimes may
have been frustrating, so i'm sorry, really. you put up with my crap every time, you
stayed optimistic and raised my spirits. you made me laugh out loud, you had me
crying so hard when you left that time, left me staring at stars on the southern
horizon. but you came back, thank god you came back. no one like you in the world,
i hope you all remember me, in a positive or negative light.
i know i'll always remember you.
happy new year.
Last edited: 31 December 2010
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