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|Worthlessness, suicide, emotional posts... It annoys me how...||Category: Rant|
Friday, 19 June 2009
04:23:41 AM (GMT)
- people here are extremely dramatic
Okay, I'd like to know... why? I am so sick of seeing so much people typing up
diary entries just to get some kind of... sympathy. Well you know what? I deal with
people who have just as much problems as them, if not even more, and not once, did
they make their problems so public. I, myself, have problems as well, but I don't
like to put it up for the world to see.
I'm not saying that it's wrong for you guys to post up things that are bothering you,
in fact, do whatever you wish to do, it is your own will after all. But just a
For all you people out there that post about your suicidal intentions, your problems,
your feelings of worthlessness...
You're making your problems public. You do have the option to make it protected so
your friends could only see it. While you could grab a lot of sympathy and good
encouragement from people, you can also attract advice that slaps the truth of it
into your face.
For example (not taking this from anyone's diary or anything, I respect them enough
not to do that.), if you are feeling no worth at all and you want to go and jump off
a cliff, you could hear the words that'll boost up your ego:
"Don't do it! We love you! D: " or something along the lines of it.
What you probably don't want to hear is:
"Go ahead and jump off a cliff, see if we care."
And what you probably don't want to hear (making assumptions here.) is:
"... do you know how stupid and idiotic hearing that is? Do you even know how much
problems and pain you're going to cause to your family? If you're going to be selfish
like that, go ahead and chance it, but I'm sure that you'll regret it a lot later
on... that is if you're still alive..."
There are some people, and I admit, I am one of those people that will drill you with
questions like that. I don't know about the rest of the folks, but I don't do it
because I'm a harsh bastard that wants to ruin your life, act like I know everything
that's going on, belittle your suffering and just move on to ruin another person's
In fact, I have absolutely no idea how painful it is at all, since they are so vague.
Pain can't be measured, so I don't bother to even act like I know everything.
If I wasn't concerned for any lives that can possibly be thrown away, I wouldn't
waste my time looking at diaries at all, or even posting up long sentences and such.
If someone wants to push you into deep thinking instead of bombarding sympathy and
sap after another, let them help.
And for the ones that have insulted me because I was there being concerned about you,
I'm just justifying my actions in this post, nothing else.
I hate the thought of suicide and I've learned through a hard way. It's been drilled
into my head, and I've learned.
Meh. I'm not asking anyone to believe all that I said is true to my personal
feelings, or whether I am genuine about my concern or not. As long as I got it down,
take it anyway you want to. I'm done with my rant, thanks for reading it.
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