I can't take the bull shit any more. All of my friends are abandoning me, and I
haven't done 
anything. See the thing is I am just a last resort for all my friends and it took me
a few years 
to realize that. They only know I exist when they need something: #1. she only comes
around
when she is out of cigarettes because I always have some. #2. he only acknowledges me
when 
needs a place to crash or to get away from his parents. #3. he doesn't even know me
anymore
he hasn't hung out with me in over 6 months. 

My desire to keep getting up everyday is slim and none. I am so sick of the feeling
that they just 
don't give a rats ass what happens to me. I've been out of school all this week sick
and only 1 friend
has actually said he hopes i get better. 

I can't take the resentment anymore. This is fucking bull shit, they call themselves
my friends.
I know who my real friends are.

I think maybe once I drop off the face of the fucking planet those who call
themselves my friends and 
don't act like it will wake up...probably not....but maybe.