Sunday, 23 November 2008
11:56:41 PM (GMT)
My god, something must seriously be wrong with me.
I've been thinking!
I know! Shocker!
So, since I've been thinking I mus really have something on my mind. (Well no duh!)
I was thinking last night about someone who used to be EXTREMELY important to
me (and if you're reading this you should know who you are) and suddenly it hit me.
I care too much.
I know caring is a good thing and all and it's actually important to care
about people but this person hurt me so bad and yet I still care. I care about
everybody, you all know that, but this one person that I'm thinking about... It's
just... I dunno. I feel like it's not good for me to think about them. I just get
frustrated and then I feel like an emotional wreck! I'm actually a very stable person
but the walls that I've created just seem to crumble at times, leaving me vunerable
to lies that this person I care about told me. Also, because of this, I rebuilt those
walls that crumbled ten times thicker than they originally were. So if you're my
friend on here you are truly and deeply special to me because I've trusted you with
I'm sorry for ranting and raving but I just want you all to know how special you all
are to me.
Dex was talking to me last night and I told him I wasn;t in the mood for laughing.
That's utterly amazing. I always want to laugh. That's how low I was feeling
yesterday while thinking about this person. That's horrible!
Now, I'm sorry if I've ever said anything to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm just very
opinionated so I'm sorry if I've hurt someone.
Thank you all for being my friends!
(A Very Cleansed),
Last edited: 23 November 2008