Monday, 10 December 2007
07:51:13 PM (GMT)
Since that day. Life itself has been engulfed by wrath, fury and raw venegance. I
have lost so much. Joy, freedom and security yet ultimately gained independence,
maturity and a very strong determination.
Sometimes a small luminosity within my caged heart reminds me of the days when
everything was alright, when my dreams at night didn't awake me in a state of
trepidation. Those are the days that keep me alive, those are the days keep me
somewhat sane and focused on what I must do. Those are the days that are slowly
slipping through my fingers.
I have forgotten how to cry and I am slowly forgetting myself. How can one forget
Within my mind the image of who I am and who I was is gradually fading into the dark
depths of despair that reside in my body and soul.
I have no trust in anyone, save one. I am able to keep going because of this person.
So thank you.
On the outside I am Strong, dominant and indomitable, but is it just a lie? Am I a
Behind this lie is a somewhat scared girl. A girl who is chained by her anger and is
bit by bit falling. Just Falling.
But I wont give in, I cant give in. I represent the last failing hope for my kin.
I am not broken, not yet.