Sunday, 6 May 2007
10:20:49 AM (GMT)
I'm In This Corner Writing What I Feel Now.
Darkness And Shaking From the Bitterness Coldness Of Outside Coming In Through My
Tears Rolling Off The Tips Of My Eyes, Running Down My Cheek As I Hear Them Giving A
Tiny Splash Of Water On The Floor.
There Is No Sound In My Room Except The Sounds Of My Fellow Mates Running Around
Outside Drunkly And Enjoying Themselves.
In My Head I Have Monsters Crawling Around Wanting To Break Free From This Body.
There Is A Time Where I Think To Myself...."will this hurt?"
Memories Of All The Screw Ups And Hatered I Have Caused Between My Mates.
The Anger And The Tears I Have Caused My Family.
The Pain I Put Everyone Through Is Impossible To Imagine.
I Wish There Was Just Some One Out There That Would Really Just Take Me Away From It
So I Pick Up My Knife That Has Excess Blood On It From The Cuts And Blood That I Drew
From Last Night.
I Make A Mark On My Arm To Where Im Planning To Cut.
My Arm Is Numb And Cold From The Bitterness Of The Cold Coming Through My Window.
Steam From my Breath Makes It Look As If I Was Smoking.
Im trying To Write Without Falling To The Floor.
My Blood So Rich In Redness Streams From The Arm And Onto My Bedroom Floor.
My Sight Is Going Pale And It's Harder To See The Lines In My Diary.
All I Can Say Now Is "Be Happy Everyone And I'm Sorry"
[[this was the last pages of Anton's Diary before he died. he was found behind his
bed in his bedroom, with a cut to his arm which bone was clearly seen. the family
was in shock when they saw him and has called ambulance quickly. family were notified
that Anton died due to loss of blood.]]