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Dear, Who Ever CaresCategory: (general)
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
04:06:34 AM (GMT)
Damn... I wish I didn't have to feel this way. Same shit everyday. Wake up, shower,
and go off to work or school. Coming back home and just locking myself in my room. I
have been drifting from my family. Still knowing that family always comes first and
without them you are nothing. So I guess I'm nothing... Bio Mother wants nothing to
do with me and I have to start accepting that, but it's so fucken hard... How
in the right mind could a mother just leave her kids... She just got up and left us!
There's five of us. Now having two more added in the picture after she left. She
doesn't care how I'm doing.. I try to talk, but she always ignores me.. I stopped
trying it's not worth it anymore. Now it's 3 am and I'm not sleeping, because my
nightmares are getting worse so I rather not sleep. Just blast the music and think of
a better place. Sometimes I wonder why me with all the shit I have been
through in the past five years and then I think to myself it's because I deserve that
shit... I just wish I didn't have to face this nightmare alone. Found my two
best friends in the world... One will never leave me no matter how hard I try. I call
him Depression. And the other one just helps me forget about him, but then after a
couple hours I sober up and reality kicks in. It's like a bitch slap to the
face. I gotta straighten out my life. I just wish for two things in life.. That my
iPod could never die so I can listen to my music 24/7 and that I could skate all day
and night long. Life completed right there.

‹CNNInternationaal› says:   16 July 2013   176958  
Desolee, moo aussie.
‹CNNInternationaal› says :   16 July 2013   300935  
Moi aussie, desolee.

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