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Wednesday, 23 November 2011
05:48:15 AM (GMT)
You know it's pretty bad
When you're afraid to go to bed.
Because you know,
You'll have to wake up in the morning.
And you know when you wake up
You'll have to change your bandages
And knowing that you'll be in excruciating pain again
It's horrfying.
It actually makes me cry my eyes out.
I want it all to just
Go away.
I don't care
Even if I have to die at this point.
As long as I don't have to go through anymore
physical pain like I did earlier.
Worst memory I have so far.
It hurt so fucking bad
Even though the doctor told me it wouldn't
fucking liar.
I was in so much pain
I was literally screaming and squirming
It even hurts now.
I want to go to sleep and never wake up
Help me?
it hurts so bad..

‹Vengeance› says:   28 November 2011   243408  
what happened to your arm?
‹Saudade› says:   29 November 2011   307624  
I got something from my mother called hiridentitis o-o
Inflammation of the sweat glands, so genetic shit.
And I had surgery for it in june, but it didn't work e_e so they
lanced it and yeah 
‹Vengeance› says:   29 November 2011   732435  
they lanced your arm of or the sweat glands?
‹Vengeance› says:   29 November 2011   299636  

My bad.
‹Saudade› says:   29 November 2011   653416  
The inflammation causes this wounds,  kind of like a cyst.
And well they lanced that. Which was a painful motherfucker. 
‹Vengeance› says:   29 November 2011   151563  
damn that must suck. I got my fingers re-attached basically. but that
doesn't sound as bad as this.

(the bone was still there lol, but all the meat except like a hair
thin piece of it was like completly severed. lol It really didn't hurt
that bad after they gave me some morphine and strapped me to the bed
rails) XD
‹Saudade› says:   29 November 2011   815058  
Holy fuck that sounds painful o-o
How did that motherfucker happen? XD

I wish I got painkillers.
I didn't get any ;u;
And after the doctor lanced it
We had to stuff the wound with gauze D;
‹Vengeance› says:   29 November 2011   990652  
I have a dumb ass friend and I keep all my knifes razor sharp
(literally i can shave with them) and It was in sheath on my belt
(which has a clip lock on it) and he pulled It, and I wasn't paying
attention and we were working and I thought I got It caught on a
branch or something so I reached back to grab the knife to get it
uncaught and he busted the clasp and pulled it. and my hand was there
and yeah You can put that puzzle together.

I didn't get painpills either, I got like two IV bags of morphine and
Antibiotics. lol

And I had to get the fingers scrubbed out and cleaned and disinfected.
then wrapped up with gauze.

‹Saudade› says:   30 November 2011   195417  
Holyfuck ;u;
That sounds so painful bro.
It'samiricleyou'realive ;o; 
‹Vengeance› says:   30 November 2011   842811  
lol a miracle is just a little over the top. besides it wasn't that
bad, I can use them still so yeah, and only like a 1/4 inche of the
tip is still numb.
‹Saudade› says:   30 November 2011   747766  
That sounds so goddamn painful ;u; 
‹Vengeance› says:   30 November 2011   344231  
not as painfull as what happend to you.
‹Saudade› says :   30 November 2011   597502  
I doubt it.
That sounds horrid D: 

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