Friday, 29 July 2011
02:38:30 AM (GMT)
All my life Ive grown up without a dad. When my friends would tell me about how much
they hung out with their dads, I didnt know what to say simply because I didnt know
what it was like. I just asked for simple things. Replies to the letters I sent to
you constantly. Answers to questions no one else could answer but you. I spent my
entire childhood wondering who you were. Who you could have been. And who you could
have made me, how you could have changed me and impacted my life. But, you decided to
leave. And not care about me. Forcing me to spend my childhood in pain. As I watched
all my friends grow up with their dads, all I could do was sit back and watch. Then,
in November of 2009 I got the news that changed who I am right now. I remember the
conversation I had with my mom when she told me.
"Alex, I need to speak to you."- Mom
"About what? What did I do? Whatever I did, Im so sorry!"- Me
"You didnt do anything."- Mom
"Well then what is it mom?"- Me
"Your dad is dead."- Mom
"How? Hes only 42."- Me
"They told me it was a heart attack. But I cant trust that side of our family."- Mom
And then I cried for 3 days strait. I felt bad because I couldnt see you at all. But
then I realized that I tried. And I put my all into trying to contact you. But what
did you do? You pushed me aside.
I need the time to realize everything I've just seen
Cuz Ive been living in a good dream for far too long...
I need the time to realize everything was make believe
Dammit I was so naive
You were never who you seemed to be
But all I ask is for my fair chance
Of making my way to the top of this industry
And with my own two hands
Not a second glance
I'll make the impossible a possibility...
So dont fuck this whole thing up for me
I thought that we were a team
But now youre kicking the legs right out from under my dream
Dont fuck this whole thing up for me
You said that we were a team
But now youre kicking the legs right out from under my...