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Depressed.....again (No surprise)Category: I have to deal...
Monday, 20 April 2009
03:35:58 PM (GMT)
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate what I look like
I hate what I sound like
I hate my family
I hate my school
I hate my home

I wish I was my best friend
I wish I was a vampire
I wish I was Caelo, cause he's got a life worth living.

I wish my life where fun
And carefree
And adventurous
And hazardous

I wish I could walk
And jump
And dance
And do things normal people can do

I wish people noticed me
Cared about me
Feared me
Loved me
Even hated me

I wish I was a threat to people
I wish people needed me
I wish people wanted me in their lives

I wish I could do something awesome
Make people gasp in amazement

I wish people got curious
Whenever I came by

I wish I wasn't so sad all the time
I wish I wasn't so angry
I wish I didn't have to wish so much to be satisfied

I want to sprout wings
I want to bare fangs
I want to be whatever I want to with a swift thought of my mind

I wish I wasn't afraid
I wish I knew how
I wish I didn't doubt everything all the time.
I wish I could.

But I can't
And I'm angry
And I'm sad

I don't know what to do anymore
I don't know who to turn to
Who to trust

I don't think I know how to love anymore
And I don't know why...

Maybe I don't deserve it
Maybe it's time
To die.

‹Samantha132› says :   26 April 2009   151251  
you know what im gonna strangle you....(sighs)i love you...your a
great person and all people wish 4 things like that and not all of it
is good belive me.


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