Friday, 2 May 2008
10:11:21 AM (GMT)
Friday May 2nd. 2008
This morning we were having an Anti Bullying presentation, the third of three visits
from two ladies.
One of them was telling us a story about a boy named Miles who had made a bet with
two of his friends. He bet five dollars that he'd win a colouring contest. And he did
win, so he kept asking his friends, "Where's my money? Where's my money?" So they
hung him on a hook in the boy's washroom.
Then the lady explained to us about how our windpipe is vital, and how sometimes you
see wrestlers step on each other's windpipe, but of course, how it was choreographed,
so they never got hurt. She explained how if someone were to actually step on you
there, you wouldn't be able to breath, within one and a half minutes, you'd pass out,
and within three minutes, your brain would stop working due to lack of oxygen.
By that time I was feeling woozy, but I kept telling myself I'd be fine, just take
deep breaths, but it was hard because we were talking about someone not being able to
breath, and it made it harder for me to breath.
I blacked out.
The next thing I remember is Mr. Murracas kneeling beside me, saying, "Nicole, talk,
talk to me."
It all felt like a dream. I couldn't speak.
Sir told Haley to go get his water bottle from his desk, then to go get my lunch. He
handed me his water and I took a couple long sips from it. Haley came back with my
lunch and he told me to drink my juice and eat my granola bar. I obeyed.
And then he took me to the office when I convinced him I could walk, and we called
home. My mom was at work and didn't answer her cell, and my dad didn't answer his
phone, so I called my grandpa and he took me to my house.
Which leads me here.
I still haven't eaten the granola bar from my lunch, and I haven't finished my
I'm so lonely right now, and not just because everyone else I know is at school, or
at work. It's because it makes me realize how horrifying death really is.
I had my own taste of death, right there in the library.
I remember the words Mr Murracas had said. "It was like you weren't even there for a
And I guess I wasn't.