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Friday, 25 May 2012
01:43:49 AM (GMT)
I know im smiling on the outside. i know im laughing always. i know i seem like im
fine. like im okay. but im definatly not okay. im far from okay. Does anyone remember
when they asked me what happened to my wrist where i had all them cuts?? remember
when i told you that i got them playing with my dog and he scratched me? or how over
moms house the kittens are fiesty and they scratched me? or maybe i tell you the lie
that i normally say. That i totally have no idea how those cuts got there. Then i
laugh and act like im okkay so nobody believes that im hurting. ive been acting
happpy for so damn long that my acting became so real and people would never believe
it if i told them how depressed i am. 
But no. That happiness is just an act. Those cuts? I put them there. I know cutting
doesnt fix my problems but it brings on the pain. the only emotion i feel. some
people may say the depression is just coming along with the emotional roller coaster
of emotios taht us teens get. but no. i remember being like 8 years old and being so
In truth, i really dont have any friends. I lock myself in my room all day. Im too
depressed to make friends. One minute i feel like i really want friends but the next
i just want to be alone. Here i am turning 15 and leaving my freshman year of high
school and ive never had a bestfriend. maybe because i was homeschooled 4th grade
through 8th and started school at the begining of 8th grade. i dont know. I have no
idea why guys keeping asking me out. im not pretty. everyone tellls me that im
beautiful or cute or whatever but i think they are all liars, im hideous. go on
facebook and look up Storme Carrie. thats me. the ugly horrible freaky me 
Last edited: 25 May 2012

‹Obsydian.› says:   25 May 2012   173368  
Idk why i cry when i reas this. Its probably because its exactly how
i am too.
‹dyingeveryday› says:   25 May 2012   141822  
im so sorry..
simisango says:   25 May 2012   637913  
hey...i am sorry 4 you...don't lose is long enough to
make friends..
‹dyingeveryday› says :   26 May 2012   592948  
aw thank you...


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