Sunday, 3 July 2011
09:39:01 PM (GMT)
Dear you... (you being the guy who I hate but love at the same time...the guy that
causes me all the confusion possible. the guy who pains me.)
Do you really need to put yourself as away whenever I sign on? cause im pretty sure
that's what your doing. and whenever i put myself as away you put yourself as online.
but whatever. you wanna do that, fine. The pain that causes me is so trivial to the
pain you subject me to every day. I HATE YOU I JUST WANT YOU TO GO AWAY YOU'RE
KILLING ME I'LL FOREVER HATE YOU YOU BROUGHT THIS ON YOURSELF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU
THINK IS GOING ON BUT DO YOU REALLY THINK THIS ISN'T BOTHERING ME IN THE SLIGHTEST?
YOU MAY BE A HEARTLESS MONSTER BUT I'M NOT!!
my parents don't know what's going on. they don't know a thing. they think i'm okay.
everyday i have to hide what i'm feeling from them. i don't care if you have to do
that too. because i have the bad side in this. and you don't even know! you
don't know anything! Ignorance sure is bliss!! you don't know $hit about
what's going on. and all i want to do now is listen to music and type out these
worthless letters to a person that i don't even have the courage to talk to. you have
no clue how much i hate you. and no clue how much i want to forgive you. AND NO CLUE
HOW MUCH I CAN'T FORGIVE YOU. I CAN'T FORGIVE YOU!! I HATE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE
AND WHAT YOU DO TO PEOPLE AND YOU'RE SO ANNOYING hate you for what you're doing to
me. and I'm crying. what if my parents walked in my room right now!!?
and you're the reason for my tears. it's all because of you. i never want to see you
again. but i can't stop thinking of you. yes, you're the reason for the tears
blurring my vision, that tear streaming down my cheek as i type this. you're killing
and I'll never forgive you. I swear. and I'll never be with you. I swear. I'll never
be yours. no matter how much i wish i am. never. EVER.