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Friday, 24 June 2011
11:36:46 PM (GMT)
Why can't anything be normal anymore? I mean really. This is all
just too much. I have no upper body strength to carry this
all on my shoulders. Is it really all just my fault? It probably
is. If you think about it... which I know you won't, it all breaks down to
me fucking something up. So yeah, I guess it is. My dad, my mom, my brother, my
family, my religion, my grades, my peace of mind, those cuts... they're all
my fault. I just can't believe I could push myself so far as to
completely fuck up this bad. And it'll all just get worse over the summer, and
then having to start high school will just push me down even further. I really
don't know what to do at this point. 
Fucking multitool. She told me, "Was it clean before you did it?" I answered yes,
but now I'm not so sure it was. 
Damnit. Just damnit.

‹VanChan› says:   24 June 2011   838705  
Don't worry, things will get better.
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   24 June 2011   417646  
That's what everyone says, dollface. 
‹VanChan› says:   24 June 2011   570780  
Babe, things have been bad for me too. My relationship with my parents
is falling apart. I can't stand being unfavored from my younger
brothers, nor can I stand being compared to others (I've even been
compared to you, hun.). But when we get our own lives, things WILL get
better. At some point, everyone's lives can get better. 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   24 June 2011   606439  
Whut. They compare you to me? LIES.
Yeh. But you and I? We have to wait out a whole 'nother four fucking
years just so this shit goes away. Hint: CAN. 
‹VanChan› says:   24 June 2011   972694  
My mom thinks you have more talent than I do. She thinks everyone has
more talent than me.
Well, we just have to be patient. Four years can past right by us and
before you know it, we need to pay for ourselves and find our own
place without any parent breathing down on our necks. 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   24 June 2011   492689  
Your mom's moody. Just ignore her.
I already usually need to pay for myself. My own place, though... I
dunno. Might rent an apartment in some state that's not this one. 
‹RushingStars★› says:   25 June 2011   895453  
When you going through a bad time, just think about how, after all
the other bad things, everything worked out and got better. And it
will again.
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   25 June 2011   242246  
What about when nothing else was ever really this bad?
Whatever, I'll just wait it all out. 
‹RushingStars★› says:   25 June 2011   467724  
That's what I always think, too. The situation is always worse than
before. But it still always works out in the end. 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says :   25 June 2011   824314  
Again, what everyone says. Like I said, I can just wait it out. 

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