Saturday, 25 June 2011
03:36:46 AM (GMT)
Why can't anything be normal anymore? I mean really. This is all
just too much. I have no upper body strength to carry this
all on my shoulders. Is it really all just my fault? It probably
is. If you think about it... which I know you won't, it all breaks down to
me fucking something up. So yeah, I guess it is. My dad, my mom, my brother, my
family, my religion, my grades, my peace of mind,
those cuts... they're all
my fault. I just can't believe I could push myself so far as to
completely fuck up this bad. And it'll all just get worse over the summer, and
then having to start high school will just push me down even further. I really
don't know what to do at this point.
Fucking multitool. She told me, "Was it clean before you did it?" I answered yes,
but now I'm not so sure it was.
Damnit. Just damnit.
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