Tuesday, 22 March 2011
10:22:31 PM (GMT)
I live in Chicago in a four room apartment. My life is considerably ghetto, my mom
is too depressed to do anything so I do shopping and cleaning. But it's not her fault
she just had a baby die and we're near broke from medical expenses because my dad's
job didn't pay for the health insurance like it was supposed to so he quit his job.
And then to bury the baby was a lot of money too. Then my dad got a new job but he's
gone a lot so mom gets depressed. And I'm just kind of trying to have my own life
while making sure my mom doesn't do anything stupid. I work at a Hot Topic at the
mall. I hate my apartment because the bathroom is in the same room as the master
bedroom so we put a book case there to separate them and attempt at privacy it looks
retarded. There's not much to do since my friends hate me now so I'm learning guitar.
I have straight A's, I'm good at school. I have ocd and I'm a perfectionist. I fall
in love really easily and I hate that about myself. And... the reason my friends hate
me is because of a girl who told them lies about me. I had a group of friends and she
was my girlfriend (her name is Stanzi) and she kept trying to be friends with my
friends but they didn't know her that well. She lives in the same apartment building
as me and because my parents are both gone all the time and her mom is a hippie who
doesn't give a damn what she does, I would go over there at night and we would watch
horror movies and talk. We dated for a little over a month.
but didn't have
sex. And then she broke up with me but wasn't very clear why. She told my best
friend I tried to rape her. He believed her tears. And they started dating. they
had sex after only a week of dating. I love[d] her and I'm trying really hard to
hate her but I just can't. She's committed herself to ruining my life and I don't
know why or what I did. I want to know so bad, then maybe I could deal with it.. But
I'm trying to just get through it I guess, I'm not letting myself get depressed
because that doesn't really do anything.
And so yeah, that's my ghetto life. :]