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Friday, 18 December 2009
01:31:09 PM (GMT)
Bold the stuff that you like, wish, and is true.

1. I think my friends are beautiful and they make me feel ugly sometimes
2. I wish I was an only child
3. I want the world to be as it was when the Native Americans lived
4. I wish I could tell people how I really feel, instead of running scared
5. My best friend is fake, and sometimes I don’t know why I’m friends with
6. The person I’m currently infatuated with has me more confused than any other
individual I’ve ever met
7. I’ve only been kissed by two boys, and I’m sure both of them regretted it
8. I’ve thought about getting surgery to get rid of my gut
9.I wish I was Alice from Alice In Wonderland so that I have somewhere to
10. I’m lonely
11. I have no friends
12. I wish I didn’t post some stuff on the internet
13. I always find ways to make myself the center of attention
14. I hate most of my family for being so closed minded
15. I hate the town I grew up in for being such a bad influence
16.I’m scared of being alone
17. I hate my dad
18. I wish I could stand up to my dad
19. I wish I could be who I really am wherever I am
20. I wish I could tell someone something
21. I want to have a baby
22. I want to know what love feels like
23.I know I spend way too much time on my own, but I don’t feel I have enough
social skills to do anything else
24. I have cut my wrist and hidden it under a wrist brace
25. I have had three consecutive dreams about one boy
26. I hate my mom for leaving my dad
27. College scares and confuses me
28.I am afraid to get romantically close to people even though it’s one of the
biggest dreams I have ever had
29. I truly have NO idea what I really want to do with my life
30. I never want to disappoint anybody
31. I think all the little things that I don’t say anything about are building
up again
32. I want to get out of this town
33. I’ve spent so much time pretending that I don’t know who I am anymore
34. My boyfriend thinks I’m suicidal. He’s right.
35. My friends think they know me. They don’t.
36. I stand on my head for nearly 20 minutes every day. It’s very relaxing.
37. I’m a compulsive exerciser.
38. I don’t approve of my best friend’s marriage and I’m her maid of honor.
39. I miss boy bands
40. I don’t think I’ll live past 30
41. I wake up every morning and have anxiety that I have to overcome to get
42. I miss my ex, I love my ex, I hate my ex
43. I’d rather talk to your sister than mine
44. I love you
45. I have always questioned whether or not I have been in love
46. I hate where I let myself get to
47. I don’t feel like I have done anything with my life
48. I want to truly believe that I am loved. No ifs, ands, or buts
49. I hate that he is so far away and that I’ve already cheated on him twice
50. I’ve got abandonment issues
51. I work all the time to keep my mind occupied, it doesn’t work
52. I wish my ex-boyfriend would love me again
53. I want to lose 20 pounds, but lack the motivation
54. Reading all these secrets break my heart
55.I sadden when I watch the news as well and see all there hatred that has
the world, but I know the cause for which it is there
56. I’ve always wanted to tell my secrets but have never had the chance
57.I hate having people come to me for advice. I really have no idea what to say
to you
58. I’ve came a LONG way this year. It’s a real accomplishment
59. I want to sleep with a guy just to take his virginity
60. I am so glad you and I are not together anymore and I blame you for the fact
that I can’t trust anyone
61. I have lost all hope in humanity
62. I feel I am being constantly judged.
63. I worry too much about my weight. Every time I watch the Notebook, I worry
when I get a boyfriend, he won’t be able to lift me like Noah lifts Allie.
64. My ex’s mother and I still talk on a day to day basis without him knowing.
She hopes he will realize what he lost, soon.
65. Every song on the radio reminds me of you
66. I don’t have a friend, anymore, than I can tell anything to
67. I am an excellent stalker
66.I act like I don’t care but I really do
69. College is the scariest and most fun I have ever had
70. I am bisexual. I am not accepted for this from my family. It bothers me.
71. When my parents were arguing when I was little, I used to hide in my room and
pretend that I had a sister that was there with me and I’d talk to her. I did
this so I wouldn’t feel so alone. I’m an only child.
72. I’m confident that if I lost a lot of weight that I would have a better
73. When I watch Law & Order SVU, I deeply fear that something similiar will happen
to me or someone in my family
74. I can’t pee without the water in the faucet running
75. I would give my life for so many people, but I know half of them would not
return the favor
76. I eat something that’s bad for me and then I feel so guilty about eating
it that I won’t eat for days
77. Seeing people cry makes me automatically want to comfort them
78. I memorize random license plate numbers in case they’re ever needed in an
79. I’m content with nothing more than one meal a day, love from those around me
and the air in my lungs…everything else is just a plus.
80. I want to choose who my organs go to when I die. I hope that they are
helping deserving individuals.
81. I travel partly because I want to be able to boast about the places I’ve been
and the things I’ve seen and experienced.
82. I dislike married men who don’t wear wedding rings.
83.I don’t know what religion to believe in
84. I fish for complements to make myself feel better
85. Every time a person comes to my work counter still trying to decide what they
want, I want to yell at them for wasting the time of the other customers in line.
86. You may not know it, but they get pissed because of you and take it out on
87.I feel ashamed of bringing certain friends around other friends
88.I always feel like I’m not pretty enough, even with everyone telling me
88. I’m afraid she’s going to get him before I do. It’s selfish and I hate
myself for thinking that.
89. I made out with my best friend’s brother years ago. To this day, no one
90. I know it’s lame but I still love The Sims 2
91. I didn’t want to wake up this morning, because my dreams were better than
92. When I say I want to be left alone, I don’t always mean it, I just don’t
know how to tell someone I need them
93. I have been in quite a few relationships, none of the guys were faithful to
it makes me feel like something is wrong with me
94. He was my first love. I still don’t know if I was his. I hope I made a
lasting impact on him as he did to me.
95. I am jealous of girls that have naturally good hair
96. I’m jealous of anyone who has a talent
97. I don’t drink. I don’t do drugs. I don’t want to. Get over it.
98. Going to parties make me more nervous than anything else.
99. I read postsecret every sunday hoping for familar handwriting
100. A day usually doesn’t go by without me thinking about him and wondering
“What if he had chose me?” 

I am completely messed UP.
Hopefully my closest friends read this to know more about me. :]

‹F R E E F A L L› says:   18 December 2009   340065  
Awwwh, that's sweet Dawn <3 :DD
*huggles* Dun worry, we all have our mess'd up life moments, buht yew
have meeee~ <3 And I'll never leave yew <333

I'll do eet tomorrow ♥ And yesh, I've learnt s'much about yew. By
teh way, if taht person yew likes break your heart, I'll break their
face. And their arms and legs and spine and etc etc.
‹♥|I'm Vulnerable|♥› says:   18 December 2009   795914  
Haha. <33 //huggles. Teri, I loves youuuu. <33 ♥

xDD That's a good way to get revenge fo' yo' friend. <33 
‹gunk› says:   18 December 2009   194860  
(Instead of Dawn, I always call you Rodney. >_>; I'll keep doing
that. xD)
‹♥|I'm Vulnerable|♥› says:   18 December 2009   979063  
Rofl. Fine. XD
‹gunk› says:   19 December 2009   977199  
‹♥|I'm Vulnerable|♥› says :   19 December 2009   510303  
LOL. <333 


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