Wednesday, 13 August 2008
04:25:36 PM (GMT)
Depression/Drugs/Drinking=Where I am at now.
All you people see me as a "Happy, and fun/funny person to be around"
But only if you actually knew what was happening. Everyone is asking me "Why where
you in the hospital"
Well I would never tell, I am ashamed of what I have been doing these past few
months.. And im paying the price
And seriously I am. My parents hate me even more then they did, my sistersa re barely
ever there for me anymore.
And I have no friends cause there all in jail.
So Here i Go i Will Tell You What This Is All About..
I have benn suffering form depression for many different reasonsits not even funny.
(Family, Friends, School..etc..)
So I though I could solve my problems by drinking, and I would consume soo much I
would pass out.
So that went on for a while till I met up will a bunch of "Friends" I can barely
remember there names.
But anyways, I was really really drunk that day and they told me something about
using drugs instead of boose.
So, drunk stupid me I did. And I got hooked on it. And then my parents where givng me
a hard time about something
And they told me im worthless and should go live on the streets cause thats all im
So I got pissed off and overdosed.. My sister said they phoned the ambulance, rushed
me to the hospital, when I got there they pumped my stomach,
and I was in acoma.. I woke up 4 days after that I got yelled and screamed at.. Then
I got told I was worthless and they didnt want me. So where am I?
I am in a library everyday cause I dont have a computer. Where do I sleep? I sleep
in the woods in a lean-to I made.
So now I am not a drinker or a druggie anymore.. But I lost my family. and I
understand if you guys dont wanna be my friend either..=[
So that is why I am probably going to leave Kupika for good. Unless people out there
actually care? But I doubt you do and sorry for wasting your time.