Thursday, 31 July 2008
08:53:06 AM (GMT)
Alright everyone... please, please if anyone knows what I am talking about here...
Give me an 'Amen' after you read this.
I am confused...Bottom line, I've lost all hope. This isn't going away. Half the time
I have no idea what I'm talking about, most of the time I feel a little cheated, and
the rest of the time, I feel like laying in a little ball in the corner of my room.
(I bet a lot of people have felt this way before for tons of different reasons,
Let me explain that entire weird statement above. How do I explain this? Hmm....
um, well.....His name is Nick. (Names are changed for anyone who has met me ^^) And
he is a terrible, terrible human being. (JK) He does make me feel like crap
though... I don't guess he can help it, it isn't as if he knows that he makes me want
to stab him....or totally rape him. I don't guess he knows...^^ He apparently
isn't everyone's cup of tea, but I sure do like him... Really, I'm sorta shy at
school when it comes to who I like and all. So, of course, I'd rather gnaw my own
thumbs off before I ever just told him...
And recently, this little weird obsession thingy of mine has only gotten worse.
I adore everything about him... it's really quite pitiful. I talk to him every so
often, and recently, I've started getting sad and kind of depressed at the end of
school when I can't see him. It screws my entire day up when he isn't at school. And
when he smiles, I smile. When he laughs, I smile because something has made him
happy. That's kind of pitiful, I know. So, this summer has been total hell. I
actually want to go back to school just to see him regularly again. I've totally lost
it. I don't want anyone else.
He is very important to me for some reason... Even if it never actually happens,
I don't want him to be unhappy or anything though. I just don't see this ever working
out for me.