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Thursday, 31 July 2008
04:53:06 AM (GMT)
Alright everyone... please, please if anyone knows what I am talking about here...
Give me an 'Amen' after you read this.

I am confused...Bottom line, I've lost all hope. This isn't going away. Half the time
I have no idea what I'm talking about, most of the time I feel a little cheated, and
the rest of the time, I feel like laying in a little ball in the corner of my room.
(I bet a lot of people have felt this way before for tons of different reasons,

     Let me explain that entire weird statement above. How do I explain this? Hmm....
um, well.....His name is Nick. (Names are changed for anyone who has met me ^^) And
he  is a terrible, terrible human being. (JK) He does make me feel like crap
though... I don't guess he can help it, it isn't as if he knows that he makes me want
to stab him....or totally rape him. I don't guess he knows...^^    He apparently
isn't everyone's cup of tea, but I sure do like him... Really, I'm sorta shy at
school when it comes to who I like and all. So, of course, I'd rather gnaw my own
thumbs off before I ever just told him... 
     And recently, this little weird obsession thingy of mine has only gotten worse.
I adore everything about him... it's really quite pitiful. I talk to him every so
often, and recently, I've started getting sad and kind of depressed at the end of
school when I can't see him. It screws my entire day up when he isn't at school. And
when he smiles, I smile. When he laughs, I smile because something has made him
happy. That's kind of pitiful, I know. So, this summer has been total hell. I
actually want to go back to school just to see him regularly again. I've totally lost
it. I don't want anyone else. 
     He is very important to me for some reason... Even if it never actually happens,
I don't want him to be unhappy or anything though. I just don't see this ever working
out for me.

‹Mad♥Hatter♥Love› says:   31 July 2008   794469  
Amen, sister I feel ya. I saw my boy lately. I see him in the stores,
an even if I speak and say something rude to him, I pass out after he
leaves. Your right about the smile/laugh thing. When he smiles, I
can't help but laugh with him. When he laughs, I laugh, too. We even
like the same things.
  We talk all the time. He'll just stop what he's doing to talk to me,
but when he's unhappy I try to make him feel better. It normally
works, unless I'm sad, too. Then he makes me feel better.
  He's mean to me, though. Except at times he's sweet. Normally he
teases me (Well could be that i tease him first, but we'll leave that
  So yeah I'm ready to go back to school. He smiles when he says my
name- Lovestruck.
katiebaby616 says :   31 July 2008   415176  
God thank you... {gives us round of applause}


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