Tuesday, 17 June 2008
09:53:42 PM (GMT)
tears fall upon my heart
simply to sing sweet lies upon my soul
is this all that lies before me
a soul filled with lies and fear?
I once held you so close
I once loved you so dear
And for you to leave so suddenly
Madnness raged upon my thouights
taking the form of a simple tear
within that tear lay all our happiness
all of our good times all our love
and as the tear crawled down my face
I looked at you with saddened eyes
Your eyes made no reply
and as such a story ends
I hope that another may begin
You know not the fear that lies beneath the smile
You know not the sadness i must hide
only few can be let in
Theese few have been chosen for a reason
and that is because they care
look within yourself now
and tell me
do you honestly care?
Do you care if I stay here?
is it best for me to stay on this forsaken world?
Or should I move on to the next?
Is it better to die than to live?
which is best for me?
is that whats best?
or is that what you desire?
desire and whats best are diffrent
then whats in your heart are they not?
should I stay and tough it out
as I have done in the past?
You and I both know that one of theese days
My tears will get the better of me
now a days its hard for me to even stand as I cry
how can I cry when if I do I make others depressed as well?
I do not wish to do such things to my friends
I never wish this upon them ever
and yet it happens it always happens
Why must things happen in such a manor?
will I ever be able to carry on without a burden of tears?
will that which I long for be best?
will at last I finaly be able to long for happiness
and not for the sadness I seem to always gain?
alas my love for emptiness has not yet ceased
can it be that not only am I afraid but also
agrey at my sadnnes?
youve always been there
for you to suddently leave
makes it hard to put my trust into anyone now
and now my trust isnt easily gained
but instead easily lossed
are you happy with your causes?
Please tall me you are
for a while there all I wanted was for you to be proud
proud of me and what I had done.
Now I long for a replacement of your kindness
Will I ever find a new you?
for now the one I've found shall do
but soon so very soon
He shall fall too
Then what to do?
when he is depressed what can I do?
do I take what you said last
and embrace what youve taught?
Or do I hide behind the mask as usual
Its up to me I know
still yet I must wounder