Sunday, 11 November 2007
02:26:37 AM (GMT)
This was actually inspired by a dare a friend gave me. She got sick of listening to
me talk about a guy that she dared me not to acknowledge his existence for a week. If
I ever did, the dare would be extended longer and longer. ENJOY GUYS!!!
You can also find my poem in Quizilla. My username is Narusigawa
Lil' Ol' Pretentious Me
"It's a deal"
Those word came out of my mouth before I even thought of them.
The dare was never to think of you,
Maybe for a week,
To pretend that you never existed,
To think of everything but you,
To continue to do it,
Until all of you is forgotten...
Most of my worries,
Are related to you,
So when I took up the dare,
It seems that there is nothing wrong...
The first few days were difficult,
I got struck out twice,
I realized that it's hard to live a life without you,
Or was it???
A week passed and I held out,
The dare was to continue,
Forever until I forgot your existence,
I became cheerful,
yet there was an empty place in my heart...
I still think of you from time to time,
I glance at you and I'm still afraid to make eye contact,
Yet, there was no more increase in my heart beats,
Or is it just because it seemed that I have no heart anymore???
Another week passed,
And I still held out,
No matter how much I feel like,
A tomb, so empty...
With not a word from you,
My life changed completely,
I finally forgot about you...
A day went by, that our paths crossed again,
I looked at you and the memories shot up to my brain,
My heart was pounding like mad,
Yet, I knew that it will be impossible for me to reclaim our lost friendship...
The friendship that I had nurtured so carefully as it grew,
The friendship that trusted you to tell me almost everything,
So fragile, as fragile as a newborn baby...
"Hi" You spoke to me,
For the first time in public,
I replied and quickly ducked my head,
But not before noticing the sad expression that passed your face...
It's over, my mind tells me,
As I quietly sat on my bed at the middle of the night,
Weeping for what I lost,
And scorning myself for my foolishness...
You're the most understanding person I ever met,
Yet I cowardly ran away from you,
Frightened by the public's opinion,
Not even thinking twice about what will happen...
You still understood,
You talked to me, even if I forgot you,
You cast a supporting smile,
As a new strength enveloped me...
I still hope I can make up for everything I did,
To say sorry, even if you will be confused of its meaning,
I'm just so grateful,
That God made someone like you... And introduced you to me...=)