Friday, 6 June 2014
05:54:49 AM (GMT)
There will be many more parts containing different things that contribute to my
Trust issues and all my problems.
You see I have a problem bout lettin go and lettin people in.
Lettin people get close to me is not an option.
Every time I do they hurt me so to avoid the hurt I push every one away or never give
them the time of day.
I like to hide.
I hide away in my room or in my closet.
When things start to get heavy or things become to hard handle I run ro my closet or
I shut the door and lock it.
In my room I listen to music at loud levels.
In my closet I sit in the dark and just well sure there.
Sometimes I cry.
When I'm there is a special place.
These for walls protect me.
Nothing else matters out side of them.
My mom is worried that she will lose me.
Worried she'll bury me.
I told her I'd I wanted to die I would do it.
Sometimes I think about it but I know it is not the answer because some where
Some how things will get better. Maybe not anytime soon.
But they will.
I keep telling mysElf that but my hope of that is starting to fade.
Inside this I'm safe
The dark is my friend
Amy where else is a fake
This will my end.
For walls around me
Wrapping around me
All in one
How am I to win?
This game of life?
A leap of faith to the bottem.
High off the ground.
I see them.
I see me.
How am I to win this?
Juat to hide in my safe place.
I won't leap.
Not yet at least.
The four walls keep me in one piece.
These are me.