I've been feeling normal for the first time in 2 months. Stepped outside
for a walk today to be rewarded with seeing the hot guy staying down the road
actually lives there, coming home to a fridge with bread rolls and polish kabanos in
to eat and being home alone to snuggle up in my duvet and watch t.v. My neck aches a
little and I get weird head pains and are a little dizzy time to time but I am
actually getting better. I have a doc's appointment for tomorrow but I reckon that
he'll probs say that it's a virus and that I'm getting better. I'm still going as I
don't want to not go and then get worse.

For those of you who don't know, at the end of the summer holidays two months ago I
was sitting in my room when suddenly the floor moved; like I was falling towards the
ground. It passed within a milisecond but as the night went on there was a strange
feeling in my head like it was being pushed from all around and I was sick during
the night. I didn't feel any better the next day. It got better but I was still
aware of the 'light headed' feeling on the left side of my head. I kept worrying and
that made it worse and the sickness came back two times. I hadn't told my parents
about the light headedness and one day I couldn't take it so I told them and got a
doctor's appointment. I went and he told me it was a virus in my throat causing an
in balance in the fluids in my ears because he could see my...nymph/lymnodes or
whatever they're called was swollen..Oh yeah I have to keep popping my ears too, he
checked them but said nothing was wrong. But when I was 6 my parents discovered a
lump in my throat. They took me to hospital and I don't remember what it was but
it's been there ever since. I'm guessing it's the way I grew. I think he just saw
that, and thought it was a swollen gland. Over the past week the light headedness
has gone but I've been left with dizziness. And now this is starting to go too. But
my ears still ache along with my neck and sometimes my head hurts but apart from
that I actually think I might be getting better. I'm sure with expo to distract me
at the weekend I will be better in no time as my worrying hasn't made it any better.
Having the HPV vaccine reassured me as well because people with cancer die when they
have it O.O....Happened to one girl. So I think I'm getting better. You don't know
how happy I am because it was hard to sleep sometimes and I was really worried about
it but now it's getting better I can enjoy life again instead of having something
nagging me at the back of my head.

AND I CAN ENJOY CON
YEAH
CONCONCONCON

WHOOP!!! CAN'T EVEN WAIT TO THE FRIDAY NIGHT MEETUP 8DDDDDD IT'LL BE JUST AS GREAT
AS CON ITSELF >.<