Thursday, 1 November 2007
01:34:50 AM (GMT)
So I haven't been on here in forever and when i come back i get this big welling up
of sadness. I realize I miss being here, i miss what this place was like when i was
first here... i don't know.. its really hard to explain. I'd love to talk to you guys
but my memory is so bad its hard to remember who you are especally if im getting tons
of letters from a bunch of diffrent people. sure i may remember some people but alot
of them i dont. the one person i remember the best is _black_rose_. she's just so
awsome its hard to forget her. and by not coming on here alot anymore i kinda feel
like ive betrayed you guys. we used to talk all the time and now its like... we dont.
im never on and we never talk and it makes me sad...
and then.. i realize how much ive changed emotionally. how much ive been through
since i first started here and i get sad. i want that back... and i cant get it back.
not ever. and.. i just want everything to go back to what it used to be. i dont want
to be sad, i want to be happy and carefree. i want to be able to remember this place
and come back everyday and talk to others. i want to... but i cant. this place is
just... *sighs* i cant explain it i cant and im sorry for being all emotional on
you... i just cant help it. i miss you guys and i love you all but im afraid i
probably wont be back on here for a very long time again.
aww crap now im all sad. i just miss this so much! i want to go back i want to >< i
want to go back when every one had an awsome okekai and people got excited because
they drew the eye well. now everything just has to look terribly awsome and no one
who does their best gets alot of credit anymore. what used to be considered good is
now considered ok. i want it back! everything changes... T_T
yes i hate change and it makes me teribly sad if you havent noticed T_T
i hope you guys are happy and having a good time
i miss you all