Thursday, 4 October 2007
09:03:54 PM (GMT)
Okay, well. I worked so hard to get candycane all year long. then at the nutcracker
auditions, i'm pretty sure i aced it. i mean, i kicked higher than everybody, and i
was like, the only person that nailed the double pirouette. then, they told me that i
got to be an angel and a war mouse. i mean, i was disapointed at first, but then i
figured that it was alright, i mean, i probubly got better then anyone else. WRONG.
elizabeth , the suckiest ballet dancer EVER, got angel and mouse. SHE CAN'T EVEN TELL
A PLIE FROM A SHENE!!!! and then this other sucky girl got to be kissy doll and
arabian. NOT FAIR! i ran out of the ballet school crying.
life just isn't fair. i mean, my crush is someone who will probubly never talk to me,
i'm not pretty enough to be a supermodel, and even though i'm one of the best ballet
dancers in my class, i got the worst parts in the nutcracker!!!!!! if you think your
depressed, try talking to me. my bf's(at least i hope they are) made me feel better
at lunch time, but i wanted to cry all over again as soon as i went to ballet that
day. i feel rejected, and stupid. and i KNOW that i'm not cut for harvard. i mean,
even though my dad has some connections, the rest is up to me, and i don't think i
can handle it.
i'm depressed. i am brutally obsessed with my crush, and my heart always skips a beat
when i thiinhk of his name.. he is popular. i'm not.
life just doesn't make sense anymore.
i used to have it all going on, i got a ballet scholarship, i was a straight a
student, i totally aced all the quizes, and i had total confidence. now i don't.
i'm sad, and no matter how happy i try to act, i'm suicidal on the inside. my heart
broke. not even johnny depp can fix that.
liz, emma, mac, if u read this, which i doubt, thanx for trying to cheer me up. and
don't worry liz, i wont throw a tantrum at your party.