Sunday, 31 March 2013
11:14:10 PM (GMT)
"I'm scared. I'm really scared.
Still clutching this ridiculous bag of cookies, too. Of all the things, I hold onto
this... This and your note. Stupid girl, Havanna... Stupid. Why couldn't you see
this coming?! Why?!
I don't know why I'm saying this, really... Maybe because I know no one can hear.
Maybe because I need to tell myself to stop being an idiot. Your hand's so cold...
It doesn't suit you... Y-you look dead, and it's terrifying. You have to wake up,
you have to... Please Morris... I haven't let go of your hand. Not since the
paramedics took over. Don't let me go... I won't let you go... I promise, Morris. I
I think... I think I love you. I think you taught me how to trust you, and I do, I
do and now you're... Now you need to trust me, Morris, please. I know it's hard, I
do, I understand, but please trust me... You'll be okay. You'll be okay and you
won't regret being rescued... I promise, I'll make it worth it. I'm sure I must love
you. This hurts too much not to be love.
I'm sorry, Morris... I'm sorry I couldn't make things better, but I'll try. I'll do
my very best, and I hope it'll be enough.
For what it's worth, you mean the world to me. I-I'm not saying this to make you
feel guilty or anything... I'm saying this because I think you need to hear it.
You're my best friend, and I love you. I get that sometimes people tell you
otherwise, but they're lying to you. You're important. So, so important and nobody
will- can ever replace you, not to me. You showed me that people can be kind, even
people who don't know you, you showed me that I should have confidence in me. Well
now I do. And you have to as well, because I'm going to make you better, okay?
Morris, I'll stop it hurting. I'll be here for you whenever you need me. Even if
you don't want to talk about it, I'll just hold you if you like. I'll hold your
hand, and make it okay.
Like now. I won't let go until you wake up and tell me to. Because it's weird and
making you uncomfortable, or something... Sorry if it is... But for now, I'm not
letting go. Please don't leave me, Morris... Not like this..."