Monday, 11 June 2012
08:24:44 PM (GMT)
Van Grants, oddly enough, has offered me a
positive lesson. I chose to roleplay as him for a friend's game, completely on a
whim, and I got to crawl inside his head and tried to think of the ways he looked at
the world and how he justified his actions. In the end, I realized that he did
everything with an understanding that it was terrible, yet he felt that it was truly
for the best that he made the choice to overthrow the score and free humanity.
And thus I learned, no matter how good your intentions may be they do not
justify or excuse your actions.
After playing him, I now carefully consider my actions, both in intention and
consequences. I have resolved myself not to fall into the trap causing others
harm because I decided I knew what was best and refused to listen to others. Because
I roleplayed a a terrible man, I now have a firmer grasp on how to be a better
Raine from Symphonia has changed me immeasurably. I always strive
to have a level head and understand that my experience with people
might not be enough to blindly defend someone, friend or not. Giving someone who
has an issue with my friend and equal chance, much like she did with Emil.
My first Tales Of title was Tales of Symphonia, and I immediately
idolized Sheena. She was so strong, yet understanding when to let her guard
down. When Corrine died, she was upset, but embraced that feeling and kept on going
strong. Corrine was her everything, and even though he was gone, she used her emotion
as a drive to keep fighting. I suffered multiple deaths in my family as a child,
along with my parents divorcing, and losing a lot of friends. She taught me to keep
going, keep your head up high, and to never give up. I was so awe struck by her.
* more later *