Friday, 14 October 2011
01:50:21 AM (GMT)
When you just want to crawl up in a nest of blankets, and sleep forever.
Why does it feel like this? Why does it have to be like this? Why can't things just
Why. Why. Why. Why. Why.
And then I realize, there's not a reason. There's absolutely none.
Things happen, because they happen. There's not a purpose.
This shitty feeling I have, it's pointless. Yet it's still there.
Guys, I fell in love, and had my heart broken. I had never gotten dumped, I also had
never felt so strongly about a person.
And I got dumped, and I don't get it. And talking to his ex girlfriends, the ones he
always talked about, I'm them. Actually, I have the traits he liked best in both of
them. So what did I do to end up lonely? I genuinely don't get it. It makes me want
to crawl up in a nest of blankets, cry my eyes out, fall asleep, and just fade into
nothingness. I'm still heartbroken, and Chance isn't helping. He hasn't even held my
hand since the dance.
Denise, has a perfect boyfriend.
And now Paige does too.
And I can't help but be jealous of you guys, because you have what I had. And what I
lost. And what I don't think I'll ever get back.
Irony, it doesn't have to be so complicated, but it feels like it is.