Thursday, 2 September 2010
09:31:07 PM (GMT)
Last year, on January 17, 2009, at around 11:00 PM, I realized that I liked a certain
guy, who was 2 years older than me named Danny. Exactly one year later, I was in the
same spot, at the same time, on the same date with the same person to celebrate my
one-year love. Also that night, something very major happened to me. My friend told
another boy the same age as me that I thought he was cute, and I almost cried when he
responded by saying "ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww". Two days later, as much as I tried to hate
that boy, I ended up falling in love with him. Not too long after that, I started
having doubts about Danny, especially after I saw him and he barely looked at me, let
alone smile politely or say hi. Finally, in June, I let him go.
It's been 21 months since I decided I liked Danny, and and I liked him altogether 16
I was recently looking browsing though some memories, and came across many things.
Some are poems in my poetry club, and almost all the love poems are about Danny. They
talk about how he's the one, how I wish he would notice me, and how much I miss him.
I wish I could get rid of them, but I won't, because they're actually pretty good. :P
I also found some notecards my bff Casey and I passed to each other in class last
year. We both mention stuff about him, and one has his cell number on it. I threw
away all the ones that talk about him. "Our song" was Rockstar by Miley Cyrus because
I changed the words to something a little different......And I remember how that song
started to play on the day that my friend told Danny I like him. There are all the
times my friends joked around with me by calling me "Mrs. ......" And how could I
forget the "H+D" carved on my friend's tree?
I kind of wish I could take it back. I don't hate this guy, but I definitely don't
like him. I think about how I was crazy about Danny, and I think, "Ewww!" It's
sooooooo hard to imagine thinking he was my soul mate.
I'm not making that same mistake again.
Even though I really, really, really like another guy, the same guy who said
"ewwwwwwww" when he found out I thought he was cute, and even though I dream about
him, dream about kissing him, and dream about marrying him, I don't believe he's my
soul mate. I simply believe that we will date one day, and then we'll see what
happens after that.
Danny: I used to like you a ton, and I thought you were The One. I was wrong. So
please, get out of my head.
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