Friday, 26 March 2010
02:46:50 AM (GMT)
well here I am still imagining him wiht her & millions of black ants crawling all
over me like they had done this after noon. ech!! *sigh..* tommorrow is my grandpa's
birthday and today is 3-25-10 bout 9:30 p.m. yes this matters to me and it may not
mean shit to you but i must get this out 'fore it cuts too deep.
Isn't it just human nature compelling me to follow this boy whom of which had broken
up with me 3 weeks ago.. why am I still wonderig at this?
Oh well! but since i have been in this R.A.D. program (Rape Agression Defense ) or
ratherly known as "Power Up" I've been doubting my abilities to protect myself from
what I've come into contact with before. Rape.
It hardly seems fair what people must live through to get to where thay may be
destined to get to. hmph. Who knows. Cept ( i say Cept a lot)
i don't want to date him anymore and i feel horrible fer it as far as i know (as what
he's told me-which i don't fully believe in yet) i'm his dream girl! i don't want
nothing much i can do about that particular thing that has been irking me lately.
Eddie Bodine. betterly known as "Edison Bonerdine"
he is very interesting, i got drunk with him fer the first time. he confounds me in a
way that most guys could NeVeR dO. is that what could help me become drawn to this
Somehow tommorrow i must fight for it. for grandpa and my own strength.
I must fight against the:
criticism, the cop "ken", my own dreaded fears. *sigh*
goodbye for now, you should know how it went soon afterwards..
RMT: my sister is having a DILDO party tommorrow too lmao !!