Thursday, 21 May 2009
08:53:46 PM (GMT)
I give up.
I try to finally give him a second chance, no wait, more like the 15th chance!
I thought I could trust him or atleast depend on him.
If he asked me to do something then I would do it without a second thought.
But appairently it's different for him.
And for now... I know I won't forget him, and I know that I won't stop loving him...
But I just need to get away... And I guess it's a good thing that May 30th is the day
that I move and that I won't be on for a while.
Last time I left, he left me.
Same thing except I can't lose him if I don't have him.
I really don't know what to do...
I stay on here to talk to him but we're never really on at the same time much...
*shakes my head*
I guess that i'm not enough...?
But maybe he just loves someone else...
I just wish he would tell me that he doesn't want me already.
I'm hanging on by a thread and I just need to hear him tell me that he doesn't love
I want him to give up...
But at the same time, I don't. He's the best person I ever met.
He's everything to me.
Like everything good in the world put together.
Without any symptoms, side effects, or negative things connected to it.
Just one small thing that I can't handle...
He loves someone else.
I feel selfish for needing him, and wanting him all to myself.
I'm so stupid.
I can't trust anyone anymore...