Tuesday, 25 March 2008
10:30:02 PM (GMT)
I found out my greatest fear.
Shaina, Lileeya, and I were about to see another movie at the local mall's theatre.
We were on our way when we decided to instead go swimming somewhere. We needed
bathing suits though, so we went to a swimsuit section, naturally. Well, those girls
know how to shop and found bathing suits quickly. I was still looking at a cute two
piece when the cashier had rung their's up. I had told them to go ahead and swim
without me for the moment. I'd catch up.
I had finally found the perfect suit when something else caught my eye. It was a
foam rocket that shot out when you pumped it at the end, like you were blowing up a
basket ball. I bought it instead and left for school.
I showed it to random people, playing with it. These guys I hold dear in my heart,
hoping to become better friends with them: Will and Jacob. Then there was a Will
look-a-like, and Will looks like a younger version of a raper sorta [[Don't ask]].
Well the Will look-a-like stole the top of my rocket and peer pressured Jacob and
Will to play Monkey-In-The-Middle with me. One of the guys then threw it to my now
close friend, Maria, who shot off with it, running really fast. I sprinted off
after her, finally catching up. I snatched it away, close to tears. [[I really am
emotional about these things...]]
Once I got back to the guys, I learned I had left the rest of the rocket with them.
They were ready for another game. This time they threw it into a person who I just
started to get to know better, Branea. It landed in her breast pocket. She seemed to
have just gone threw a growth spurt because I had to climb up on something to get it
By this time, I had broke down in tears, and rocking back and forth on the court
yard grounds. My hope-to-be friends, peer pressured by the raper again, shook their
heads and walked away, saying "Pathetic"
I woke up, tears streaming down the sides of my face, to the sunlight beaming from
the cracks in my blinds. It was Monday, and I was sick from school.
That dream scared the living crap outta me and helped me realize my greatest fear:
People thinking lower of me and calling me pathetic.