Saturday, 8 December 2007
11:12:20 PM (GMT)
I haven't been on this site for awhile & I'm not sure I'm gonna be on for awhile
again...Does that even make sence?
Anyway ya I wanted to say sorry to all my friends on this site cuz I haven't been
writing back that much. It's not that I hate ya'll but I've just kinda lost interest
in life...including the internet. The only thing I seem to care about is anime &
manga...wow what a life.
Lately I've been in way more fights with my parents. I don't really think anyone
cares but oh well then just don't read this. My school life sux & I have no real
friends there. I've been trying harder in school to try to impress my parents...and
to get a book back. But anyway, its not really working cuz I'm just not smart enuf. I
also say I hate guys but now I kinda feel like I want a guy to like me. Oh ya & Im
back to ummmmmmm
cutting again. I dont really know why I do it but I just get so mad & upset that I
cant do anything else. I sure as heck cant talk to my parents about it cuz they're
usually the source of my problems & if they arent then they still wouldnt understand.
I finally told my lil sis that I did cuz I couldnt stand not talking about stuff...at
least stuff thats personal like that. Well to end this now........IDK really what to
say. I cry often & hate just about everything including myself.
Oh ya & on top of that I dont think my best friend wants to be my friend anymore. My
parents know shes gay & so they think we are gonna DO something...although we wont
cuz ya...thats grody. Our friendship is turning out alot like my last one with this
girl named Angela. If you can guess...we arent friends anymore. Maybe its just me?
Maybe its my fault that when I get close to some one I end up hurting them & then we
grow apart. To any & all those people Ive hurt that read this: "I'm sorry".
And what really sux is that there are ppl that are way worse off than me in the world
& I cant even think about them. All I do is complain.