Friday, 13 July 2007
12:16:55 AM (GMT)
You know what? It's not fair.
My friends have all these beautiful clothing and bags and accessories, they attract
boys with their beauty and fashion, and they're popular because of their money and
My family is horribly unwealthy and I hate it. I'm gonna have to drop out of high
school in a few years to help pay the rent. I feel like scum. When my friends and I
go out, boys stare at their velvet tresses and sailor-waisted skirts and they cringe
at my old ratty t-shirt and jeans. I can't afford to be beautiful, and it makes my
stomach drop every time.
I listen to my mom's CD's because we can't afford new ones by Natasha Bendingfield
and Maroon 5.
I try and tell myself what I DO have like a family, but my dad left a while ago,
Vanessa is practically selling her body, and my mother comes home late at night from
her triple jobs.
And I don't want to sound like a brat. I don't. But I really want to express myself
here. My grades are high and I could get a scholorship, but what's the point? I'm not
going to college or going to finish high school.
If we had only a little bit more money, we'd be a closer family. And that's all I
Sorry for letting my stupid complaints drop on all of you who happen to come by.
Don't mind my selfishness. I'm just unstable right now.