Saturday, 10 November 2012
01:25:15 AM (GMT)
Gah I'm so lonely my chest hurts so much! ~cries~ it becomes harder to breathe with
each breath, I need some comfort I this cruel world, right now I feel like crawling
into a closet, curling up in a ball and dying. My sanity and kindness has faded into
the abyss and my heart has a deep hole in which I cannot fill with friends, family,
or music. I need someone to help me fill this void in my heart, to understand the
pain I feel from people running away from me in terror. I need a friend everywhere I
look someone has someone else to love while I am forever alone ~cries~ I want,no,
need to find someway to fnd happiness in this cruel sick joke that life is playing
on me. No one understands what it's like to be feared for no reason. I'm not unaware
that people fear me, I can see it in their eyes. It pains me to see their faces when
someone bumps into me or when I bump into them I'm only 5ft 3in I'm not that tall.
I wish I had someone to hold me when I'm scared, someone to hold me when I'm alone,
someone to care.