Wednesday, 15 September 2010
02:32:47 PM (GMT)
IDK, that feeling is baq, where the blade wants to cut my wrists, where the deep
desire of loving is no more
where nothing seems to feel good anymore
I need a drug, an antidote and i found it, it feels so much better to be in pain now
Physical pain where the emotions go away for a while, numbs everything, the fears,
the thoughts, the confusion, the misery.
The pain that makes me happy, i know its sick and demented but thats how i am i
EMO? IDK. GOTH? IDK.
I just know the pain feels better even though when i wake up itll be sore, at least
illl have a reminder behind and the soreness will feel so much better cuz ill apply
pressure and the pressure will feel better, the tears will disappear and the pounding
of my heart will say something is wrong but i womt care cuz the enjoyment i feel from
it makes me happy