Monday, 30 March 2009
03:37:38 PM (GMT)
I did it :/
My plan didn't go the way i wanted it too
But I did what mattered the most
I waited till the day ended
I also prayed that there would be no setbacks either.
As soon as we got out of the school,
I told her that I had to tell her something.
I told her how I am a little greatful for the lectures
I told her how I'm just like this.
I told her that I really never moved on
I told her that how our friendship really meant to me
I told her that she's honestly unreplacable
As soon as I finished,
I began crying.
All she did was look at me.
I saw the face she showed.
I couldn't wait for a reply
I just walked away
And so did she.
So chance #2 was right :/
All she might do is walk away
and she did.
She didn't hug me and tell me it's okay.
But to be honest,
Ashley was right in 6th grade
I do live in a damn fantasy world where I think that everythings gonna turn out
I live in that world where after every fight all you have to do is say how you feel
and everythings gonna be okay.
Well she proved me wrong.
I actually live in a world where it's much more than that.
It's not that easy
It'll never be
Once a fight,
There'll always be a chance of another one.
And I finally learned it.
What surprises me the most about today is how I feel.
Because as of now, I feel great :/
I faced her
I told her
She may never be my friend again
But I don't care.
All I really want to do right now is go to the place where I could really call a
it's called the corner of my room where I couls be alone in
I really don't feel like talking much at the moment :/
I might just sleep the whole day.
I don't even care anymore.
All I wanna do is sleep.