Thursday, 19 February 2009
09:13:59 PM (GMT)
I hope you care as much as you say you do…
It’s been another long day.
Wanting nothing more to sleep
(and something real to do)
Not have to face a day without someone here,
Sick of hating torture.
Loathing my rejected attachment to you,
And my detachment from the world,
So I promised I wouldn’t.
But who was there to stop me,
To stop and watch me bleed?
Surely not myself.
No self respect, control…
I’ll scream again.
And argue on who will win this war.
I needed you.
To bad you couldn’t tell.
I know it’s faded.
I can tell by the way you’re not there.
How is it that I can stay on the phone with mike,
(who I see everyday),
And not say one word?
Yet you push me away in my time of need.
Push me off on him?
When I crave you.
If only you knew,
The pain I put myself through,
Trying to stay with you.
How is it that five months,
Helped me overcome?
But I’m dragging low,
Fearing this is almost done.
You know I push away…
Detach, and never look away
Please don’t drop me like a habit.
Please don’t promise me forever,
‘cause I know I’d be your mistake.
Please don’t try to love this hatred,
This unreal nothingness girl.
Don’t kid your sad self one bit.
I can see you drifting away.
I’d rather cut the ties quickly,
Than live another lie.
You know I always had no control…
And I’m sorry on addiction to you I abide.