Wednesday, 19 November 2008
02:40:28 AM (GMT)
when i got home, i looked back on the day i had.
& the first thing that popped into my head was you. today i was meant to ask you out,
because my friend told me to, i realised that if you had said yes, i would be a much
better person, i would be fixed, i would smile bigger then ever, i would laugh louder
but then; if you said no, you wouldnt talk to me as much because you would
think im odd, & then the person who makes me happier then i've ever been, wouldnt
talk to me anymore, you probably wouldnt even say hello. & i cant risk that.
i also realised, after you had been away from me for about 4 hours, & i started
craving alcohol once more; being convinced that its what i needed to make myself not
hurt, i realised that it wasnt alcohol i needed, it was you.
everytime the clock hits 11:11 i wish for you,
& i stay up all night looking for shooting stars, & then i wish for you.
i would give my life for you, dear god, please make him love me to.